Why I Walked Out Of Church On Sunday Mass?

Marriage equality ruling in the USA means more than just allowing same-sex marriage across America, no, it’s more than that.

Rachell Zoll/AP wrote  – At First Baptist Dallas, where the pulpit was adorned Sunday with red, white and blue bunting to honor the Fourth of July, the pastor called the Supreme Court’s gay marriage ruling “an affront in the face of Almighty God.”

The iconic rainbow colors that bathed the White House Friday night after the court legalized same-sex marriage nationwide represent “depravity, degradation and what the Bible calls sexual perversion,” the Rev. Robert Jeffress said.

“But we are not discouraged,” Jeffress said. “We are not going to be silenced. This is a great opportunity for our church to share the truth and love of Jesus Christ and we are going to do it.”

On the first Sunday after the high court ruling, theological conservatives grappled with their new status as what the Southern Baptists call “a moral minority” on marriage. Ministers were defiant about publicly upholding their views, and warned church members to prepare themselves for a rough time ahead. (Read the full article).

Religious Breakdown

I knew I was different since I was very young, maybe pre-school, like five years old or something. I just didn’t know how to deal with it. I tried to be myself, but my father put a stop to that. When I was a freshman in high school, my dad scolded me “there’s no homosexual in this clan!” he screamed at me, as he clenched the collar of my school uniform. I tried to fit in, but it didn’t feel right. So after finishing school I left my childhood home, and moved elsewhere around the world where I could be myself. Sixteen years later I end up in Canada, and later became a Canadian citizen. Landing in Canada was the most liberating feeling I’ve ever felt in my whole life. I felt relieved and at home … and at peace.

Raised in a strict Roman Catholic household, where my dad attempted to burn the house down because mom thought we should spend Sunday at home instead of going to church, was very difficult. We’d go to church every Sunday, every freakin’ Sunday. I remember when I was about ten year’s old, me and my older brother would walk out of church just in time for the Homily. We sat inside the family jeep or other vehicles parked near the church’s entrance, and wait for the Communion to end. We’d snuck back inside just in time for it to be over.

I know my older brother did it because it bored him, in a way, so did I. But mostly, because I thought it was full of crap. I didn’t get it why they preach about “love and forgiveness” but they condemn people who are different, and treat women less than men. Priests used the church to influence people politically. I usually left Sunday service disappointed. I thought, the priest’s interpretation of the Bible passage was just a matter of opinion. They’re full of it – exaggerated fantasy. I was TEN, and I already felt things didn’t add up. I tried working for the church for about a year two years later, and I saw and heard things that didn’t sit well with me. It is a business. And some say “believe in the ‘words’ not the institution,” then perhaps there’s no need for the institution to exist? I didn’t find a lot of integrity in it. I stopped going to church at eighteen, and stopped practicing all together by twenty one. It’s not for me, I didn’t feel welcome and accepted. There was a lot of “faking.” I felt being brainwashed to be somebody I’m not.

For me, faith comes from within oneself not by any supernatural power. Though, for some people, if it makes their life more whole … if it makes them stronger, then why not? It’s when religions look down on people who are different than them and be all judgmental as if they’re perfect is the one thing that grinds my gears – not to mention the inquisitions in the past, barring women from becoming officiating priests, etc.

Love is absolute!

Catalyst: USA’s Marriage Equality

The US Supreme Court’s ruling on marriage equality means more than gays being allowed to marry in the USA. It’s so much more than that. Not everyone wants to get married – gay or straight. It doesn’t mean gay people should marry now. Heck, Canada already has gay marriage for ten years now.  So why should I care? When I heard the ruling I felt emotional. It’s a tipping to pursue equal treatment for all of humanity. It will cause a ripple effect around the world, and it already has. America is looked up by the world. Countries who reveres it has the tendency to follow what America does from economy, entertainment, politics, to war. The USA being a world superpower, very visible, and influential, will give others, who are fighting for similar causes, a stronger legal argument to push for change in their own region, country, community, family, and even for themselves. It’s the beginning of a new wave of cultural shift from the straight macho addiction in the past century to a more inclusive mindset in the future.

In hindsight, the generation gap phenomenon we are witnessing now played a part in this victory. The need to be praised and recognized for anything, political correctness and today’s young generation’s feeling of self-entitlement in a way helped changed people’s minds – from kids (self-acceptance), their peers, their parents, friends, and community. Nowadays, people are “afraid” of offending anyone and being called a “bully,” even for just speaking the truth. I call it “‘Freedom of Speech’ with a long fine print of caveats.” The US Supreme Court made marriage equality official, but I can’t help but think why didn’t they made this decision in 2004? Perhaps the political climate was not favorable? Socially people weren’t in that mindset yet? Why did they have to let advocates battle gay marriage in each State when it was so obvious that it was a Right? Why did they waited and allowed the US Constitution to be threatened with a discrimination amended? Why did they waited and broke families? Whatever the reason was, I give more credit to the advocates and those who fought the fight. The US Supreme Court merely put the stamp on the memo to make it official. Thanks?! But where were you all this time? Sleeping?

My hope now is for other countries to follow suit and do what is right. I don’t expect everyone to tolerate and accept LGBT, nor do I expect everyone to be happy about this ruling, but tolerance, acceptance, forgiveness, and freedom works both ways … you can’t demand from others something you’re not willing to give.



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